Poetry

Taking my time to be taken aback The waking world is upside down My peace of mind is thrown off track And let me know where could be found Where can i be found any more Because the this isn't the place i learned The rot is making its way to the core I long for the safety to which can't be returned Each coming of the sun is another stab in the gut The light in my eyes, indignant reminders of what Has fled from my life and left it fundamentally changed LIKE I've been here for years but everything is still so strange 😕  I can't find the strength to acclimate To this decimation of my worldviews The importance of the partner can't be overstated Pieces of the partnership, a part of which was you You, a part of me, apart from me, the ghost of my most cherished company Bereft of mine, by my own flawed design, the repetition to Insanity..  Try as i did but could only keep malfunctioning Every facet of selfharm has the essence of vanity...

Maybe i could take the time The incentives to reconstruct Reconsider these things of mine To be reminded that I give not a fuck Isn't it always simpler that way? Sometimes it's easy to forget Tipping tongues, what would i say? Memory is required in order for regret Maybe i could break the signs Never wished for any better luck Read between or cross the lines I'd think by now it couldn't hurt this much... Every time at when time's what I'd take To start with hope however miniscule Microscopic seeds, the remnants of heartbreak Insanity reaped, they were sewn by a fool Was i so arrogant to think I'd succeed? Without a doubt, in confidence i was sure You can lead a horse but it's always gonna bleed Failure wasn't an option but for amassing the manure... And it all piles up in time The time that i had taken for granted Because forever was our next in line And in a day it was leaving, blink and a reprimanding... Every chance I dismiss is an opportunity i m...

Grandest insignificance and would you look at the time A vague resemblance of an overstayed welcome and invite My perspective is not changed, no difference made in sleep Everything is so fucking strange, promises i couldn't keep. Return me to my bliss and give me back my ignorance Those who seek shall find and i did find distemperments It was another of my own mistakes I was unprepared for whats left in this wake The old truths are broken and left are remnants Much like my heart, but pieces of nonsense This is not the place where i can recall It's almost impossible to reconstruct  In the chasm of love you compelled me to fall The abyss of our heart, completely fucked Stuck in the fuckin pits and like tar It used to be comfort, how ensnared we are There was never reason to panic, up to the neck When it comes out is frantic, then I'm a wreck Ever deeper sinking into a pointless struggle Suddenly drowning in where id once snuggle No longer embraced by the arms of compassion A...

Beyond skin, Beyond something great as could be My skin dessicates and my bones make the skeleton an enemy The intruders don't need be foreign,  as loved ones have potential An invading irrationality and soreness Make allies as friends lament the mental All of mine are dead, i made sure not before this How can this be for real? I thought i already killed you The moment our fates are sealed Less each minute remains held true Much so that what is left are only remains The cadaver of all i cherished made pain I'm never gonna be okay again And now i get to die alone Wherever you stopped being my friend Carcinoma of the soul stsge 4 grown Never before has been so brightly 🌞 shone My whole chest, break all of the bones Reconciliation with no strength to reprimand You lied about where in your heart i stand Fuck, I can't believe I jumped like I'd land  On my feet. Let alone anywhere laid prone...

Burn your eyes until they're red Let the light blind you instead Whatever things need not be asked Turn into things you can't look past Then become what can't be missed A pachyderm in each rooms corner I must have granted the wrong wish A dose of euthanasia, per doctor's order Proper life support unplugging,  you've yet to learn See your own lifeline short running, Then your eyes burn Picturesque and ashes framed, it staring blank When an end is only shame of having just yourself to thank So make a point be one of gratitude For every answer which seemed void of truth...

Poster child for abortion Distortion loves its own appearance Perfection greets itself with contortion A reflection twists from painted interference What nature aims to imply But afterbirth is more than baby's worth Concrete from the cradle, rock-a-bye A selfaware mirror, vainglorious curse Asking each one itself, not assured In the glass it asks of blemishing questions Things inquired of a light, impure Perils in the fear of incorrect reflections Light shone upon an image of superficial vanity Displayed as mutually as it's seen To be or not, feigned grandiosity Mirror gazing sheer Insanity, black spleen.