A Wretched Lesson

Tell me as if I never knew
That everything makes me fucking sick
Absurdity, this can't be true
It's got to be a fucking trick!
But do my eyes deceive me,
Is what I've seen a ghost?
That each day would bereave me,
Of what I need the most
No retaliation.
Only bare it with a grin...
A sick initiation
In every day, it comes again

And again, again, not again
I've learned repetition, father of learning
Regurgitated habits, know where and when
Even fire is monotonous, pattern is me burning!
What good is any structure
When built upon the sand?
If solidarity can rupture
With never getting out of hand
Like I've always got a grip
Like I'm down to earth, I'm grounded
Clear minded, so from my ears drip
The grey matter, I'm baffled, dumbfounded

I have been here already, done this before
The epitome of habit, have it routine
Like living dejavu, but something more
LIFE that has become gratuitous it seems....

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