Hold That Thought...

Grandest insignificance and would you look at the time
A vague resemblance of an overstayed welcome and invite
My perspective is not changed, no difference made in sleep
Everything is so fucking strange, promises i couldn't keep.

Return me to my bliss and give me back my ignorance
Those who seek shall find and i did find distemperments
It was another of my own mistakes
I was unprepared for whats left in this wake
The old truths are broken and left are remnants
Much like my heart, but pieces of nonsense

This is not the place where i can recall
It's almost impossible to reconstruct 
In the chasm of love you compelled me to fall
The abyss of our heart, completely fucked

Stuck in the fuckin pits and like tar
It used to be comfort, how ensnared we are
There was never reason to panic, up to the neck
When it comes out is frantic, then I'm a wreck
Ever deeper sinking into a pointless struggle
Suddenly drowning in where id once snuggle
No longer embraced by the arms of compassion
And overwhelmed by an instinct that insists on detachment
Like trusting the predator and a burning bridge of my denial
Separate the victim from the prey in different body piles
love for love and keep thinking back to circumstances permitting
Reciprocation was irrelevant and there was no option for quitting...
Whatever will be willed of me
Skilled at measures of memory
The world that i remember, it isn't this one
Familiarity dismembered, and i feel dumb
The ones we love and their power to hurt
I've given up mine, shall be rendered inert
...i just want to take a fucking nap in the dirt...

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