Procrastinator's Horde

Taking my time to be taken aback
The waking world is upside down
My peace of mind is thrown off track
And let me know where could be found

Where can i be found any more
Because the this isn't the place i learned
The rot is making its way to the core
I long for the safety to which can't be returned

Each coming of the sun is another stab in the gut
The light in my eyes, indignant reminders of what
Has fled from my life and left it fundamentally changed
LIKE I've been here for years but everything is still so strange 😕 

I can't find the strength to acclimate
To this decimation of my worldviews
The importance of the partner can't be overstated
Pieces of the partnership, a part of which was you

You, a part of me, apart from me, the ghost of my most cherished company
Bereft of mine, by my own flawed design, the repetition to Insanity.. 
Try as i did but could only keep malfunctioning
Every facet of selfharm has the essence of vanity...

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